Sad and terrified

I'm a 26 year old from South Africa, I have had 3 miscarriages I'm now 9 weeks pregnant, I really believed this was an easy pregnancy I had not experienced any pains or bleeding up until now. Last nyt after peeing when I wiped there was pink spots I slept wearing a pad so that I can be able to see the amount of blood. This morning when I checked there was just to tiny spots of blood and I'm even more nutious then before my emotions are all over the place. I just feel the urge to be alone when alone I get frustrated and cry scared that it's another miscarriage I was really hoping and praying I will get to meet this one ... in just so scared and emotionally drained right now my Dr's appointment is next week Tuesday