Hello all... I'm in need of some advice and hopefully this will free up my mind to make a wise decision. My SO and I have been dating for a good 6 months. We began sex around 4 months and talked about babies, marriage etc. I have 3 children from my previous marriage and he has two from previous relationships, never married. He initially wanted to have another baby ASAP! I told him we definitely need to consider marrying first. He agreed, but we continued having unprotected sex thinking the pull out method would save us time. Unfortunately, at some point in our "relationship", I called things off because I felt like he was still entertains a female that he had a past relationship with and I didn't want to play the fool again.... Well I missed my period. But it didn't surprise me because the month before I missed it and it was extremely late with ALL NEGATIVE pregnancy tests. Days passed and my breasts started hurting like crazy and I started feeling pregnant. I went and bought a dollar tree test and low and behold I was pregnant, 2 days before Fathers Day so I sent him the positive test with a Happy Fathers Day dad. He's been unsupportive ever since. Saying I'm not as sick as I'm acting, etc etc. All of the lies about marriage and family quickly went out of the window. I told him that I don't plan to raise a baby alone and abortion is an option. Mind you I've never had one and is very scared about this one, but I'm pushed to the limit. He also disagreed with the abortion and says if I have it I'm nothing to him. Before this he was great to me and my children. Making sure we have whatever we needed etc.  I've gone against ALL my moral of having sex before marriage, im ashamed of myself, I don't know what to tell my church members or my family. Abortion seems like the only way to relieve this nightmare.