So heartbroken

My husband always makes me feel like I am not good enough. So I learned to distance myself from him and almost detach to where things he would do wouldn't phase me. Good or bad. I wouldn't complement him, have sex with him, basically not do anything for him. I was just so hurt and discouraged well we had a talk about how I was acting towards him and I apologized and said I'd change. I never told him why I acted that way. Well today he does it again. It hurt 10x worse because I reverted back to having sex with him and actually caring and trying to make things work but he just shit all over me and my feelings and I feel so useless. Idk what to do anymore. I don't want to just give up and divorce him but he's making my self esteem so low and I am starting to hate myself. I told him how he made me feel and he apologized and said he didn't know he was doing it but I don't want him having that power over me anymore. Is our marriage over? Idk where to go from here.