My baby is 1 week old today. I look at him and start crying. He is my 4th and my last. I cry cause I love him so damn much and I don't want him to grow up lol. I've also had problems with breast feeding. He had to go to nicu for inhaling amniotic fluid during my c section. So my whole birth plan went out the window. I didn't get to do skin to skin, I didn't get to breast feed, I didn't even get to hold him till he was 24 hours old. I pumped and didn't get anything for 3 days. Now when I pump I only get a combined 10ml. He latched on my left side like twice and would latch on the right. The lactation consultant said he knows what to do and he will get better when my milk came in but he crys and gets frustrated every time I try to latch him. He has to be supplemented with formula ( nicu started that ) so he eats 2oz of formula and what ever I pumped. I feel like a failure for not being able to get him to latch and not producing enough milk. I must worried that all these emotions will turn into postpartum depression. :(