Depression...

Jess • 22, in the process of divorce..
Today is my birthday (I should be happy) my boyfriend went to work and I decided to take a test...BFN. Also found out that he hasn't been looking at a ring (looked at his phone the other day and saw kays on it, got really excited) he had been looking at a ring for his mom...he gave it to her today...on my birthday...am I a horrible person to be depressed?