Terror and fear within the walls of my delivery room

Valinda • Mom, Wife & Pre- K Teacher , Married 2007, 👼2013, 👶Eli 2016, 👼2017 , 👶Due Jan 2020
The day I was due to deliver or be induced was June 14, 2016 at 8 am but the night before I had already started to show signs of my very first round of contractions. I was being induced at 39 weeks pregnant cause I had lupus, and it was safer for the baby to be born a week early. When I got to the hospital, I was 2 cm dilated, but they decided to hurry things along with a IV drug. The contractions seem to get harder to handle by 5 pm so I got the epidural, which worked right away. But within minutes, I become really itchy and breaking out in a rash, where I was given benadryl thru IV and I knocked out. But around 8:30 pm the nurse said my baby's heart rate dropped below normal and to move to my other side. But about 10:15 pm, my room filled with doctors, nurses and my anasetiogist, who seem to all be in a hurry. One of my doctors explained that the baby's heart rate dropped but way below 100 and they need to do a emergency c-section. I remember asking, "Is my baby going to be all right?" I was getting anxious and said, "Please save my baby!" I was in tears when they wheeled me to the operating room. When I got there the anasetiogist put a mask over my face and told me to breath, and said, "We don't have time to run the medicine that will make you completely numb down below so we will just have to put you under completely" . That's when they pushed the medication through and it felt like a really bad muscle cramp going up my neck then suddenly I could breath cause the medication they gave me made my whole body's muscles to stop working and this was all while I was awake. I remember swinging my arms which was the only thing working, trying to alert them I couldn't breath but then I remember them holding my hands down. I really thought that I was dying as I tried to breath, and I would say bout 10 seconds or maybe more I finally knocked out and woke up in the recovery room. The first thing I remember asking is, "Where's my baby and is he ok?". The nurse said he was great and that he was pink with a Apgar score of 8 and that his cord become knotted but it didn't seem to have a effect. But I had to wait to recover before I could see him. That was the longest 30 min of my life. He did have some heart irregularities due to the cord being knotted but after 2 weeks it was check again and had improved 100 percent. They believe maybe the contractions maybe slowly knotted the cord and it hadn't been long since he was nice and pink and since he seemed normal a week before on the ultrasound.