Another miscarriage

Shannon • 7/31/21 Zamaria Camille 🌈💖👸🏾
So I went to the hospital on the 4th of July and found out that I had another miscarriage. It was so unexpected because I didn't have heavy bleeding or cramping. I've had some bleeding but no cramping & vice versa. What scares me is that this is my 3rd pregnancy 1abortion(please don't judge I do feel horrible) and 2 miscarriages. My first I was 2 months and this time I was 4 months. I just don't understand why this happened to me when doctors were saying that everything is fine and looks good and I've called 3x before about bleeding and they would say its fine as long as I'm not filling a pad or anything. This has me scared for future pregnancies cause I feel like any little thing that happens that I'm going to go to the hospital. I just don't know what to think or what to do idk if I want to try again now or wait a bit. It sucks cause I thought I was past the miscarriage stage and bought things for my baby I'm still going to keep them but it just breaks my heart that I will never get to meet my little one. 😢😢