Just need to vent =(

Just feeling so overwhelmed and defeated.. fiance and I put off wedding because we rather spend that money on infertility treatments.. failed clomid, failed <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">iui</a> and because we decided to buy a house, we are doing another round of clomid. 100ml instead of 50. My follicles looked good on cycle day 4 I have like 17 on each side.. way better than last time. I'm so stressed because we've been ttc for over 4 years for #1 and this while buying a house thing and infertility is clearing out our accounts not to mention we just found out we can't get a usda loan and now we have to do the FHA loan which means higher house payment and more money down... =/ I just want to roll up in a ball and cry. Oh and work is stressing me out to the max and we've been arguing. =/ =/ probably wasn't the best month to do clomid being so dang stressed.