Am I losing my mind...help?!

Sarah 🔥 • 💔 Blighted ovum November 2016. 🌈 Rainbow Baby Girl 💗 born Oct 2017. 🤰🏽Baby Boy due 4/2020 💙
I'm 12 DPO and this was with FMU. I didn't really see anything so I tweaked it...AF due Monday 7/11. Am I losing my mind because I want this so bad?!