Talking about Dallas, but only my personal emotional experiences over the last few days.

So I'm a 911 dispatcher & I live in a state connected to TX. Dallas is a 6 hour or so drive for me. Our agency offered assistance to Dallas police department so their dispatchers can attend funerals, take time off for an emotional re-set, tend to any injured loved ones, etc. I want to help, because we have lost some of our own in my department & I can't even describe the feeling of working through a funeral of someone you knew, cared about, & worked with on a daily basis. It's mind numbing, to say the least. It's hard to focus. You're on edge & testy. The smallest thing feels like a huge annoyance. I've cried off & on all day today. Anyways, I was afraid my husband would not want me to go for safety reasons, but this was his response & it made my night & made me cry again. 😍😢😭

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I'm not only upset by the officers shot & killed, but also ALL victims of police brutality, racist extremists, etc. I watched the video from Baton Rouge for the first time last night while at work & I cried my eyes out. I felt sick watching it. Ultimately I am posting this to show that there can be some happiness when it feels like the world is covered in darkness. Pull those you love closer & love them more fiercely than ever. Live every day to the absolute fullest, because tomorrow may never come. I've been so depressed today & legitimately terrified of going to work, taking calls that could result in death; dispatching officers to what could be an ambush, or what could result in loss of an innocent citizen due to police abusing authority (not that I believe that is going on across the board, but I'm not stupid. I know there are bad apples in every bunch)... I was LITERALLY sick to my stomach driving to work today. Then somehow, this among other kind words from my family reminded me why I have to keep going back to work every day. I'm making a net positive difference. Some negative things may result too, but ultimately I know I will keep doing what I do, because people count on me to be their voice of reason in their darkest hour.

*Um. Posted the wrong screen shot. Lol. Oooops.*