How to find myself?!

Sara
I am single after a 6 year relationship (20 years old to 26 years old). Before that I was in a relationship for 8 years (12-20). We were neighbors, yes I know crazy lol
The 6 year relationship was very serious. We lived together, engaged, we were about to buy a home, we were trying for a baby for a while and had a dog together. I'm not sure who I am or how I can figure it out. We broke up in the beginning of May and I am still having a hard time with the break up. Long story short he ended things because of an abortion we had 5 years ago, apparently he has been struggling with it and got to the point where he couldn't take it anymore. If anyone has advice I would really appreciate it. I'm almost 27 years old.