Self.

I feel so bad for my boyfriend. He is the most sweetest person there is, and I love him with all of my heart. But, I absolutely hate myself. I feel bad because he has to deal with me. He has to hear me cry and complain about too much, and I feel like it isn't good for him. 
I want him to have a happy girlfriend that loves herself and that's confident. I am not that girl. I can't stand to look in a mirror for long, I would prefer to hide under the covers. 
I've wanted to model, thinking it'd help me, but I really feel like I can't. 
This is just a rant, I'm sorry.