I went to my niece's VBS program and had an emotional breakdown. There were so many adorable little ones. Every thought ran through my head, the what ifs, the whys,the it's not fair. I was just sitting next to my parents and my sister waiting for the show to start and it hit me really hard when the kids were running out smiling and hugging their parents. I jumped up and ran to bathroom to let my tears flow. I called my husband and asked him to come pick me up. I cried for several minutes, cleaned myself as much as possible and made my way outside. My dad was outside searching for me to make sure I was alright and as soon as I saw him he asked what's wrong. The tears just flowed , I couldn't breath. I just cried until my husband came to pick me up. I feel so guilty for missing her program and embarrassed for having a public breakdown. I couldnt control all the pain and sadness I was feeling.

It's been 6 months since I miscarried. We tried for a year before getting a bfp and miscarried at 6 wks. Here we are 6 months later with no sign of ovulation for the past 3 months. I have an appointment coming up July 28th & the Dr will be looking into our fertility. Please keep my husband and i in your prayers.