Help depressed 9 weeks

I went to my first appt last week and I got pictures and everything I saw my baby and then I couldn't stop crying the father doesn't want me and neither does his family he has someone new and his family thinks that I'm the reason he was abusive and mean and angry but I'm not I never tried to make him mad at me he's just really awful.... I've been super depressed cause I'm not excited about having a baby at all I feel like it's bringing me closer to the end of my life which I have a fear about I feel like I can't do this with out the father and me being together and idk I'm super depressed and idk what's going on:(