So as usual I let people run over me do to be having a really big heart and being nice , so I am in college and the first time I started to like this guy was 2 months before we where about to get out for summer break , and he said that he likes me but he is not ready for a relationship but I am and he had told my friend who hooked us up was all he wanted was sex and I confronted him about it and he apologized but and I really like this guy but i let my feelings get in the way and he had sex in the back of this van and i already feel disgusting about it and now I messaged him twice