I have been ebf, my baby boy was born June 15th. I have a history of depression, anxiety, & Ocd. I took Welbutrin & Celexa at different times throughout my pregnancy. But I have had ppd & severe anxiety since the moment my little guy was born. I had anxiety attacks in the hospital & they have not stopped since. My Dr has seen me 3 times now since my baby way born & each time has uped my dose on my medication. When I went last week we decided to change my medication again. This time it's not one that I can take & continue to breast feed. We (myself, my dr, & my husband) talked at my previous appointment about this possibility being our next step if i wasn't feeling better. So I agreed that I thought we should try the new medication & try to start weening to formula. But by the time we got home & started fixing that first bottle it broke my heart. I feel like a failure for not feeling well enough to care for my children in the first place & now not breastfeeding makes me feel like I've failed again. I know that I need to take care of myself to care for my children, but I can't help but feel guilty giving my little guy formula.