Fed up totally just had enough.

17wks pregnant tmrw and still have severe hypermesis with on top of this severe chrohns disease flared up. Back in hospital with multiple drips and narrowly staying out of intensive care once again. Im feeling so fed up and depressed. I have a 11year old girl on holidays and i cant take her anywhere not even a park and although she understands ita making me feel like im such a rubbish mother. I havent even been able to cook for her or my SO or clean house. Hes been fantastic going to work then coming home cleaning whole house and cooking. My neighbour is helping me with my child for childcare but i feel so ashamed having to get help and rely on others to care for my child. Sick of IV drips currently have two each arm and sick of being sick every twenty minutes. Medicine isnt working. Chrohns is severe if its not sickness its the other. Is their really light at the end of the tunnel?? Has anyone suffered this severe and got better before baby came?? Baby boy is healthy this is the main thing that matters. Hope to come home soon but then few days later i always get re admitted its crazy. Roll on december!! Pray i stay out intensive care this time around. Last pregnancy spent 27 wks their declared critical number of times. Thanks for reading just need noce comments because i am sick of feeling so damn useless not being able to care for my child. Sprry for tmi and best wishes to all you ladies. Thanks.