Okay so I've been with my current boyfriend for almost two years now. We have a good emotional connection and the sex is great too. We both like it rough and there's nothing to not enjoy about it. However we've been arguing a lot lately and he cheated on me twice before and I suspect he's cheating now too I'm sadly soon going to have to break the news but I can't, I'm madly in love with him. I haven't been the best partner because I've been cheating on him for months now. This guy cares about me and supports my every move as well as helps me as an individual and before when my boyfriend used to go down on me I felt nothing so I faked many orgasams. Then my other lover ( who is slightly older) goes down on me and it feels AMAZING. At that point I started to help my boyfriend improve so we can still stay together without me cheating but it was pointless because I was still sleeping with my other lover. They both love me and I love them both too. I have a stronger connection emotionally with my long- term boyfriend but a stronger connection sexually with my lover but my emotions and sexual desire fog up my mind and  don't allow me to choose between these two wonderful guys. What do I do ?