My husband is not on board with me staying home...he says we need the money. I agree - we do need the money in order to accomplish our goals...however, I don't care about that right now. I care about raising my son and keeping him safe. I care about seeing all of his "firsts". I care that there are crazies in the world who don't care about me or my son...and if one of them wanted to hurt him...I can't prevent it if he's at a daycare. We are not around family, and since we just moved here, we don't know anyone. 

I know there are tons of people who HAVE to put their child in day care at 6 weeks - so I know I should feel fortunate to have 12 weeks...but it's not enough...he still so little, and he can't tell me if anything bad were to happen to him (like all the crap on the news nowadays). I know that if anything ever happened to my baby at day care, I would never forgive my husband...