It's over…

i need to talk to you about some serious shit right now, it totally hurts me to do this because ive not wanted to for so long but i think now its time and its shit and its going to be even shittier but for me im just not feeling this anymore

i havent told you this but you could maybe feel it? i dont really feel like i have feelings for you anymore, like in my head im like i should love this girl but in my heart, i just dont and believe me, its shit and ive tried to convince my heart that i do ive tried to ignore it but i think now i just have to do it before i dont do it and im in a relationship where i dont feel inlove with the person im with, im sorry, there isnt any other way i can say how bad i feel, like the past year and a half + have been so good and filled with so much good shit and bad shit, but im sorry i cant do it anymore, i was 100% staying for you, so i didnt have to hurt you and so i didnt have to break your heart but now i have to or im going to break mine, in this world you have to be as selfish as you are selfless and for now i think im done being selfless and want to focus on me, there arent enough words to describe to you how shit i feel and how sorry i am

maybe i pushed myself out of this relationship idk but it was nothing you did, i just lost the feelings that i used to have and show so greatly, and youve noticed that, i know you have, i really dont want to hurt you because it hurts me to do that to you

you have been such an amazing girlfriend and i know one day someone will appreciate you and show you the affection you deserve

i know youre going to try and convince me not to go, with all of your heart and soul and i know its going to break you seeing me go, but i think you need to focus your life on you for a bit okay, jess. youve got a lot of sorting to do, and getting you setup for the future

im truly sorry with the bottom of my heart

Almosy 2 years. And im still madly in live with him, ladies, i need you 😞