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La • Tue, Jul 26

Thank you for reading this and any advice you can give me. I really have no one to talk to this about and could use some advice.

I am 29 years old and will be 30 in August. My boyfriend is 41. We have been together for two years. He has a 19 year old son that lives with us and a 14 year old daughter he sees occassionally.

I am 6w4d pregnant. When I first told him, he was very happy. Cut to a week later, he told me he did not want this baby and that it would interfere in his future plans of traveling back and forth to Florida. He said he never wants to clean another dirty diaper again, he feels too old, and has zero desire to be a father again. He told me to get an abortion.

I have a very low self esteem. At thirty, I am not interested in getting back into the dating scene. I'm afraid I will be alone the rest of my life.

I always wanted children. Especially with him. This pregnancy wasn't a mistake. We tried for it for a few months and now that it's here, he is urging abortion.

We live together but I have a place of my own and always kept it. This past weekend he told me to go home and that my mere presence was smothering to him.

Last night I called him in tears because I was reading about the abortion process. He got mad that I called crying in the phone. He wouldn't come to visit me when I needed him the most. He was "too tired."

I don't want to raise a child alone. But I fear if I don't go through with this pregnancy, I'll regret it my entire life. But I can't do it alone

I don't know what to do. I'm so depressed. I feel unloved and pathetic. I feel like the bottom of the barrel and he makes me feel that way because he only loves and cares for himself. His words and actions hurt and he doesn't even care how they make me feel.

What should I do? How do I talk to him? What do I say?? I'm so hurt. I feel like the scum of the earth, not worthy of anything happy in life.

My poor unborn baby....

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