Admiration or Love?
I have spent the past four weeks hanging out with this amazing girl (I should say woman because she is 23 and I am 21) at a summer program that I work at. For some reason, I am really drawn to her even though we are so have very different beliefs and backgrounds. She is Muslim and I am Christian for example. Yet, I find myself wanting to be with her all the time and I feel very attracted to her. At first I thought this was happening because I admired her for her incredible story and talent, but now I'm beginning to wonder if it might be something else. We both have boyfriends that we have been with for at least 2 years. Yet, I've never really felt attracted to my boyfriend the same way I feel attracted to her. I am pretty sure I am straight but I am beginning to wonder otherwise.
Some of the other women in the program joke that we seem like lovers because we are always together and hugging or kissing each other in the cheek (this is a greeting in her country). I'm beginning to question everything because my heart beats faster when she is with me and my mood lifts whenever we are in the same room. We joke that we are each other's "other half" and we feel comfortable sharing our deepest secrets, secrets not even our closest friends or boyfriends know of.
I am not sure if these feelings are due to the fact that we have a limited amount of time left to see each other. I'm heart broken because she will be returning to her home country in 5 days since our program is coming to a close. She will not be able to return to the USA for two years after the program ends because she cannot get another visa until then.
TLDR; has anyone ever admired someone so much that you are convinced it might be more than just that?
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