Eating disorders and pregnancy

I "use to be" anorexic, and I still get feelings like I did before about my weight, but haven't had a long period of restricing my intake or counting calories etc in over 2 years. This is my 4th pregnancy, including one mmc in October. My body knows how to do this. I'm only 10 weeks and I feel like I'm 5 months.

I am STRONG enough to not partake in any behaviors while I'm pregnant, BUT my mind is still just beating me down.

I am terrified that I'm going to be 200 lbs.

Anyone else having these issues?