Just needed to get this off my chest, figured this could be the place to do so...

So my ex, whom I was madly in love with & left bc he couldn't stay clean & kept lying to me, has just recently got out of jail. & is now texting me. I have moved on & am currently with a man who treats me amazingly! But that truth is I never wanted to leave me ex but I couldn't stay & be treated the way he treated me when he was high.

Anyway, so almost a yr ago he started seeing this girl, she got pregnant. He has been telling me that he wasn't sure if it was his bc she was cheating on him with her ex. We had even tried to get back together & I ended up pregnant too, lil did I know when I would go back to the town I live he was still seeing her just incase the baby was his he wanted to be there but lied to me. I was so stressed all the time I ended up loosing my baby bc of it.

So her baby was born July 2nd, my dead uncle & best friend's bday. It was kind of a slap in my face.

Today I have been fighting back tears all day. Not only doesn't it make 4yrs today I lost my lil girl, but he found out that the lil girl is his. He let me know by sending me pics & texting me.

I'm happy for him, but it's like he keeps shoving it in my face that just months after I left him he got a stranger pregnant & he now has the one thing I want more than anything in life. I just want to cry...

Am I wrong for feeling "salty" towards him? Am I wrong for being mad at him? It's just not fair that I leave him bc he can't stay clean & treat me right, & the second girl he sleeps with he gets her pregnant!?! Maybe I'm just jealous...idk what to think or how I should feel right now.