11dpo TMI

Taylor
Hi so today I am 11dpo I'm so emotional like crazy crying for njsy about everything , Boobs are beyond sore at sides. I caved and took a test and BFN. When I went to the bathroom I saw egg white cm sticky so I decided to do an internal check and had some light pink on TP. Should I rule myself out? 9months we've been trying not for baby #2 and I'm so over BFNs. I literally can't do it anymore. Thanks for your time.