So af showed and I've been crying all day and I told my s/o I don't even feel like trying again I mean yes it's my first time ovulating first time on clomid but we didn't know that and had been trying for a while before finding that out so I'm already emotionally unstable lol like I just want a baby I cry so much but he kept quiet when I said I don't feel like trying again and I was like I mean we are going to and he was like okay good and I said but it just so hard. He really wants a baby it just I'm more emotional about it cause I've wanted to have kids all my life but I was born with a congenital heart defect and all my life was told u won't live long and you can't ever have kids and I'm 23 and just got told 2 years ago roughly that I can have kids and that they've done so much over the years that I can live a long life but then finding out I don't even ovulate was just like another hill thrown in my life but praying round 2 works and that preseed works well for me like it has for everyone else just  wondering does anyone have any advice? About ttc about how to stay emotionally sane lol like I tested 3 times but i won't be testing next month cause now I know if I'm not my period will show up on time which never happened before but like how do u get threw the tww? An how do u see af and just be okay? I've been a train wreck and I don't work so I can't just throw myself at that (cause of my heart condition I can't work) and I don't live close to family so I can't just go hang out and tv well there's baby's everywhere and online there's baby's I just need something to get my mind off of it that I can do at home. Any suggestions will work.