I had been sexually abused and I never told my mom. Or anyone. Years have passed by and as they go by I feel more and more down. Summers get pretty bad when I'm alone. I have emotional breakdowns and suicidal thoughts. I know suicide is not the answer but those thoughts just always come to my mind. I just always feel so dirty, worthless, and like I'm not loved. I've cried so much and I had started disconnecting from social medias. I would put my phone on airplane mode or turn it off completely so I wouldn't talk to anyone cause I was afraid to talk about it. I finally was able to reach out to one of my friends but only because she had went through something similar. I broke down on the phone with her so she knew something was wrong. I told her about my suicide thoughts. She comforted me and told me I had to get help and tell my mom about it. The thing is I don't know how to tell my mom. I know I need the help and I want it because I hate feeling this way I just don't know how to get it out to my mom. Any suggestions?