Were scared to love our baby

Krystal
Had a miscarriage at 8 weeks last year. Finally got pregnant and I'm about 5 weeks. We've talked a little here and there about being pregnant and the baby and what we hope it is but neither of us want to think to much about it because we're afraid. Last night in the middle of the night I felt my husband reach and put his hand under my belly button above my lady area like where the baby would be and I wanted to ball (I didn't I just enjoyed his hand on my skin). Idk what I need I'm just venting I think. I'm sure once we get past 8 weeks we'll feel better but time is moving at a snails pace.