I can't wait..... :/

Ny
I CANT WAIT UNTIL:
the future where Ill actually meet some decent friends, 
I finally find a decent man wholl love me and never hurt me
I feel fully confident
I love myself completely 
I get over my fears of love
I become a better person
I stop wishing I was other people
Im completely happy with who I am
I stop thinking that Im ugly and nobody ever wants to be with me
I actually find someone who genuinely cares about my wellbeing 
I have the courage to hope again 
:'(