Everyone.... Expect me 😢

Im feeling so frustrated and devastated... 
All my girlfriends around me are have babies and some are even on their second child. I'm here struggling to pull myself together because I'm turning green with jealousy and I know I shouldn't be. It's just hard waiting for your body to become the sacred vessel of a little miracle. It's this beautiful beginning and I'm not getting to share in that feeling. I've been holding myself over with tons of books about babies, birth, healthy pregnancy, natural birth, breast feeding, etc. I even bought a few (3) onesies and one little pair of booties to set aside for my future bean. Does anyone else struggle with this? How can I overcome all this frustration?