So, my boyfriend and I have been trying to solve what he calls a porn addiction. I did my research tried so many approaches good, bad and subtle. We have been getting into fights about it. I want to check his history but he freaks out and snatches his phone from me. Says it can't happen again, me looking or wanting to look at his history. He also in the midst of an argument said he does it because I don't please him. Things he likes are unattainable tho. Huge breasts tiny waste huge ass. He said I can't please him until I try exobitionism and anal and all this shit that decrease my value. It's against my moral to let anything go up my ass it's just wrong to me. And the whole exobitionism, I'm not ok being naked infront of strangers or anyone that is not my man. SO last night I tried watching it with him. I lit candles had porn ready to go I sucked his dick and then took him to our room for what I thought would be a relieving surprise to him. He looked at me and said no I told him shh it's worth a try. So we didn't have sex because he rejected me but I was doing what he likes and he wouldn't even look at me. He wouldn't touch me. He wasn't into this at all. He pushed me off of him turned off the computer and he got dressed and left. I don't know what to do anymore he left me there curled in a ball just crying and shaking and and scratching. He didn't seem to care until it really clicked with him that I was doing this FOR HIM so he held me and said he didn't want to hurt me he didn't want me to lower my morals just to please him. It was all well and good after he comforted, thanked, and held me until I smiled again. I just don't know what to do anymore I feel so ugly and worthless and like I could do anything he told me to do just because I want him happy. Feed back is much appreciated, maybe you have a similar experience or some kind words. PS IF YOU VOTE TRY NEW THINGS PLEASE EXPLAIN IN A COMMENT it would be very helpful.