Totally normal but I occasionally watch sick weird porn

I am in a monogamous, loving relationship with a wonderful husband. Our sex life is very fulfilling. However sometimes when I am alone I feel drawn to watch very weird porn. Dom/sub, gay, bi, orgy, micropenis, rape, etc... I feel ashamed and would never tell my husband about this as he would be like wtf! Even I consider it wtf.

I don't do it very often but I don't understand my sick fascination with weird sex. (If you are homosexual pls don't be offended. It's weird to me because I am totally straight)

Has this ever happened to anyone else?

(P.s. I would never want to reenact what I watch)