My friends my heart just keeps breaking, my baby girl is going on night 17 in the NICU, she came off the oxygen but now her heart and oxygen saturation keep dipping to low rates so here we sit. I've learned so many terms and medical care crap honestly for what ever reason I just get mad....I know that probably seems stupid but I can't help but sometimes feel like screaming "this wasn't supposed to happen"! Every nurse looks at me lately and says oh you're still here! I'm like yes thank u I didn't realize we are still stuck here. Deep down I know this is the place she needs to be until she gets stronger however it does not make it any easier. Ok rant over but I will continue to ask even beg you ladies for prayers :(