Sometimes regret having a baby 😣

I feel terrible and guilty for this but i often think about how I wish I would have never had a baby. I'm having such a hard time adjusting to motherhood that I don't feel like I'm bonding with my baby at all. breastfeeding has been the hardest thing I have ever done and I keep going back and forth whether to just switch to formula or not. I've had crying spells every few hours every day since my son was born over two weeks ago. I have a counseling appt in two weeks (first available) but how do I make it until then? Every day is so hard.