I don't really know where to start or how to put into words what I am feeling. My husband and I have been ttc for nearly 10 months now. Last Friday felt like one of the best days of our lives, we finally got our first BFP, 3 of them to be exact. We spent the next few days feeling such shock and joy. We were so excited we wanted to scream it from a mountain but only told a few close friends bc we understood the risks in the beginning weeks. Then, in another few days my biggest fear came true...I miscarried at only 5 weeks. I spent the day at the doctor yesterday being poked and prodded and being told there was nothing on the ultrasound. They also found that I most likely have PCOS which I'm not even entirely sure what that means for me. With nothing showing in the ultrasound they did a blood test to check and see if I was ever really pregnant. I am waiting on those results eventhough, I feel like I know in my heart that I was. What are the chances of feeling the symptoms and having 3 BFPs?? I'm not even sure why I am writing this right now. I just keep going through waves of feeling extreme sadness and then feeling like I'm okay and then comes another wave. I guess I am just searching for support from others who I have been through what I'm going through so we can be there for each other and know we are not alone. I know I was only 5 weeks but for that one week I knew, I held my belly everyday and talked to my unborn child. I never knew it was possible to feel so much love for something only the size of a poppyseed...and now I just feel lost.