So I've recently been introduced to Scott (⬆️). He's 35. I'm Downing (also ⬆️). I'm 22. I was so trying to not like him. He's way older than me. I was terrified he'd think less of me because of how young I am. I have had experiences like that in the past. 

When we went on our first date, it was great. Conversation flowed. Smiles were shared. Looks of pure infatuation were caught from across the table. I was absolutely smitten. 

Then, he kissed me. It was quick. It was sudden. It was perfect. After that single kiss, my brain quit functioning. I was silent for a solid minute. I was in shock of how much I was feeing. It all hit me at once. 

We went out last night, and we talked about deeper subjects, like kids, marriage, and things of that nature. (Neither of us brought it up intentionally, there was a screaming child in the restaurant, and being a psych major, I was explaining how I'd handle the situation were it my child, which the mom ended up doing! Go Mom!) As I was saying, I've always dreamed of adopting kids with special needs, and without me saying anything, he pops off with how awesome it would be to have a child with special needs. About how it's obviously not ideal, but he knows they are so special and would love to have the privilege of having such a connection with a child of such a caliber. Then, he talked about how he would make it a point to be at every event in his child's life and never miss a thing. 

I am falling so fast and so hard, and I just needed to share with women who have the same feelings as me and who know how crazy it is to feel this way because all of my friends are either engaged and don't have time to listen or dating the same guy from high school and don't understand the beauty of being with someone who is mature and who has responsibility, but he sets everything aside just to send a sweet message to me or to have a meal with me. 

I won't say I'm in love, but I know I could be. I would feel completely and utterly safe and happy to be in love with such an amazing, caring, funny, and sarcastic man. 

I've been in one serious relationship in my life. He cheated on me after three years. I have dated and thought I trusted a few guys since. I never truly felt this. This comfort and excitement to get to hold the hand of the most handsome guy in the room. The most beautiful soul in the room. The kindest person I've met. 

I've always heard, "When you meet the one, you'll know." If this is it, I'll be overjoyed. 

If you've made it this far, thanks for reading. God bless you. You're beautiful, and I hope you find all the happiness this world has to offer. 😘