AF rant

So I'm suppose to start AF today and I have noticed cramping for a few days now and my emotions have been crazy and though I'm hoping to be pregnant I am feeling like the emotions are related to PMS so today my cramps were a bit more harsh and then I had very light spotting this morning I got all upset and just new AF was here and that I was out this month so all day I've been super bummed but I hadn't started yet ugh What the heck why does my body torment me like just start already so I can have my sad day and then move on but know now cramps are completely gone and no AF I want to be hopefull but I just don't wanna be let down again tomorrow! sorry rant over!