I'm used to being spoiled and I'm scared I'll never find someone that will do the same

My ex was really abusive but when things were good he always spoiled me. Here are some of the examples of what he would do: he would surprise me at uni with my favorite foods & sit outside to have a picnic with me.. He would stay up with me all night when I felt scared. He would drive hours to see me (4-5) when we were long distance, he would give me so much attention, would leave things outside of my door to surprise me in the morning when I was leaving for school.. He did a lot and I'm scared I'll never find someone that will spoil me the same way.. Like I'm tempted to go back to him cause I feel like no one will ever treat me right again :/ am I just being negative?