Don't want to be judged so I came here to vent. My friend told me one of my old friends that I no longer speak to is pregnant again. She lost her last child. She was 22wks pregnant. Premature he didn't make it. It was very sad. I was hurt for her. Wouldn't wish that on anyone. But I must admit I was jealous when she was pregnant then and I'm jealous cause she's pregnant again. Child number 3. We were both trying at the same time last yr but I never got pregnant and I'm still trying and not pregnant. Took preseed tracked my ovulation with clear blue me and the hubby tried on the right days. Took a pregnancy test yesterday and nope not pregnant and to add my period started today and its 3 days early smh We've been trying for 2yrs he has no children I have one from a previous relationship. I'm almost 30 and its harder as you get older. Just so sad and disappointed. No one knows I feel this way so I know my friend didn't tell me to rub it in my face but it hurts. It hurts every time I take a pregnancy test and its always negative. Hurts when I have to tell him not this time and watch the sadness in his eyes. Hurts every time I see someone I know announce their pregnancy and they're on their 2nd and 3rd and 4th child! I don't understand why its so easy for some ppl to get pregnant and hard for others. I just want one more that's it!!!!! 😢😢😢😢😢