I found out my sister in law is pregnant. Me and my husban have been trying for over a year to have a child. And my sister in law lives with her boyfriends mom, they have been only dating for acouple months. They party all night and do drugs all the time. Neither one of them can keep a job he has no license and they have no car. And now she just told us she is pregnant. It's just a huge slap on the face that we have been trying so hard to have a child and we have had no luck. As I am waiting for my period to start I'm dreading when it arrives because it's so heartbreaking each month getting af when all you want is to be pregnant. I just don't get what we did to have this struggle. It's not fair. And I just want to give up and face I must be to awful of a person or something.