Now recently I've felt like shit. I feel as if I'm always being compared to someone in some aspects, making me feel belittled. 

I also have sisters doing things behind my parents back weighing it all on me to makes sure they don't get caught. 

I feel cornered. I want to tell my parents about the abuse that occurred to me not so long ago. I want to tell them, but I don't want to see this person again he was a college student and honestly he made this mistake too and I don't want to report him. I want to tell my parents so they can know, but not so they can force me to report this guy. 

Should I go about it, would it even help, I feel it would but my parents are so distant from me we can't even have small talk. I'm just there to them, I know they love me, but they don't believe in me.

As you can tell it's a load that's breaking me I can't keep this up. My only options, I feel are to move out and find peace of mind in a new environment where I can learn to love myself. But I'm not sure if this is what I should only do. And honestly all this plus I'm a lesbian who's had numerous boyfriend of which have helped me learn men aren't what I'm into. I feel so outcast, and different from my family, so much so I feel like I'm pushing myself away. It's definitely easier than telling them.

And honestly I need an outsiders point of view so plz anything would help.