8 months since miscarriage. Came on here and had to 'delete' my first pregnancy, brought back so many emotions, not that they ever left. Afraid to be excited, terrified is more like it.

First pregnancy was difficult. We had to tell everyone early since we live on a farm with family. There was a lot that I couldn't be doing. Baby measured about 6 weeks, miscarried at 8 weeks.

Nothing was worse than my niece's and nephew's running to hug me to apologize for something I'm sure they couldn't quite comprehend. they were so sad for me, which made it worse. That's not something I can go through again.

Rainbow baby is due around my birthday. And I got pregnant around when I would have been delivering my first. Feeling very emotional. I'm not a religious person, but I find myself praying for strength. I get excited, then reminders of the past come back. Waiting will be the hardest part. Praying baby #2 will make it into this world to meet mommy and daddy who love them unconditionally even before they are here... ❤