So my FWB and I live together, and say I love you, well last night he told me he "cheated" on me by having sex with one of the girls he used to work with and how he got a kick out of the excitement of knowing it was wrong.... he asked his step-dad for his truck so he can move out if I want him too... and I do but I don't... I do want him to because I can't trust him.. but I don't want him to because I love him, the past 9 months with him have been both complete hell and complete paradise for me. I love it, but I know it's wrong of me to still love him after doing this... I know it's wrong for me to not want him to leave but how can I? I've become so dependant on his love that the thought is sending me into an anxiety attack... I can't breathe my heart feels like it's shattering into a million pieces.. but I can't trust him so why do this if I can't trust him? I know a lot of the response if there are any are going to be telling me to leave him and take the opportunity presented because of the fact that he did it and what not... I know it would be for the best but I can't bring myself to letting him go... I also know that if I truly love him then I need to let him go but I can't stand the thought of someone else calling him theirs, someone else sharing the same bed with him... I can't stand these thoughts... my heart is aching in pain... anyone else been in this type of situation and outcomes...?

Not dating, FWB. However a lot more than just FWB. We do everything together like a couple would, we do absolutely everything together. He even said last night while he was crying about how he doesn't deserve me and how I deserve so much better than him that we are basically together and that's why it hurts him that he can do this and I can still love him.