So it starts here when I was in school I thought I was in love and me and my boyfriend at the time done the deed on many occasions I fell pregnant at 16 I was heartbroken that I was pregnant I was so young then a few days later at 6 weeks I lost the baby and I was kind of relieved at the time since I was still a young child myself and things would of been so different to now I went and had the implant put in my arm that lasts 3 years. Well anyway me and that boy broke up a few months later and I thought I was heartbroken. 

I met my fiancée a few months later we fell instantly in love and have devoted our love to each other ever since, when we were 19 we decided it was time for us to remove the implant and see where that takes us, at 21 now we are heartbroken than it hasn't happens well it did once after a full year of the implant being removed we tried for a baby and we had our 2 little lines we were over the moon ecstatic! but that also didn't last long😓after 6 weeks I lost the baby and we were heartbroken absolutely broken we still are, and since then so many people seem to confide in me when they find out their pregnant my other halfs sister is pregnant aswell which is difficult enough to deal with as she's just turned 17 and thinks she's in love with this boy when secretly she doesn't even know who the father of her baby is😓 one of my friend who was pregnant before I had a mc confided in me first now 4 days agai she had the baby he is gorgeous absolutely stunning I can't keep my hands off him but I so wish deep down inside that he was mine and I was blessed with such a miracle but sadly it's not my turn 😓 then 2 days Sao my best friend text me and told me that she was expecting a special little gift that broke me as she has always said she. Ever wants kids and she even text me to say it was a mistake and she didn't mean for it to happen she also had her implant removed 2 weeks prior. but then just now 20 mins ago my heart shattered my cousin text me to tell me she was also pregnant but she was quite for along she's 19 weeks 😓 it's heart braking to think that we were pregnant at the same time but my baby left me at 6 weeks she's only just found out as she's on the pill how can these people fall pregnant so easy and after a year and 9 more this me and my other half can't even get a faint line on a test I'm heartbroken baby's all around me and I'm dealing with the fact I may never get a little gift 😓😓