I realized today how close I am to being a mom. I've baby sat kids since I can remember and I'm the oldest of 6 kids I've worked with special needs I've felt like I have so much experience until now I'm realizing I'm this kids mom there's no one to hand him off to when he cries all the time all of a sudden I'm not feeling so experienced I'm beginning to feel kind of nervous about the whole thing I'm still super excited but I'm a little freaked out as well.b