I have breastfed my little girl for 6 weeks now and I want to switch to formula so bad. To be honest, I don't even enjoy breastfeeding anymore. I was pressured into it to begin with bc "breast is best, so you need to do it". Lactation consultants from the WIC office started calling me the second they found out I was pregnant to ask me to breastfeed, and my SIL who has successfully breastfed 2 children for 2 years came to the hospital when my daughter was born and threw one of the formula bottles away and said "ewww that's gross, you need to breastfeed." I tried to breastfeed my first child and made it 4 months before I had to switch to formula for medical reasons. Now I really really want to stop breastfeeding and just formula feed only, and my SO wants to formula feed as well but I have tremendous guilt and depression just thinking about quitting. I feel like I'm a failure of a mother and like I'm not good enough. And I'm also afraid of how people will react especially my SIL. I cried myself to sleep for 2 weeks when I had to stop breastfeeding my son, and idk what to do. I'm miserable, and can't spend time with my son bc all I do is breastfeed, she eats every 30 minutes and has for weeks, but I feel so guilty for wanting to quit. Sorry for ranting, I just have noone to talk to about my feelings which makes everything worse.