I feel like everything else is paused because of 'what if I get pregnant' I don't drink on nights out or feel guilty if I have a drink because I might be pregnant or ovulating, I've not applied for jobs because if I was pregnant I wouldn't have been there long enough before going off on maternity leave plus just general things like I spend all my time thinking about TTC that I don't really have fun anymore. After 2 years and 8 months of TTC I don't feel like me anymore, I'm just a boring hormonal mess!