Need to let go...

Of all this bullshit. Why is it we bd twice a day and I get every symptom of pregnanvy. I get excited go to the store and buy a test because ad is 2 days late. I get home, take the test out of the box to pee!!!! Af at has arrived!!!!! Fuck you body. Fu low sperm count....and I hate signing in on this and wishing I was someone who just posted the bfp or telling the world how wonderful their baby is!!!! Yes I am jealous!!!!!!!! Why is it so fucken hard. Why came it be like one of those woman saying this was the first month they tried. Yes I'm over it!!!!!!!!!! Baby no 2 should be this hard wtf