I can't even comprehend this sadness

Chanti • 28. Married to my best friend 💍. Just gave birth to the love of my life, Eden Grace 👶🏽.
Just got back from the ER after heavy bleeding starting this morning. I lost the baby 😢. 
I don't even know what to do with myself! Why did my body reject my little bean?? I feel like I failed the baby and my husband. It was my job to keep our little bean safe and I failed. 
Is feeling like I just want to curl up in a little ball and disappear too dramatic?