Started my period and I'm in tears... My heart hurts

Aly • My son born 6/14/17 he is my rainbow 🌈 baby 👶🏽
I tried so hard this month and I feel like I failed. Cried twice today. 
Idk what to do anymore honestly. It makes me not want to have sex with my man because I always get my hopes up. 
"Hopefully this time" "let's me log it" 
And nothing comes out of it. 
Allot of you are lucky it has happened too. 
Baby dust to everyone. I hope your guys wishes come true. I'm giving up for good. This is really hard for me to go threw. I think I'm just going to get on birth control and be over this!!!